No Escape

I think just about any Mom who has dealt with sick kids probably knows what I am talking about without even reading more than the title. Sick kids can be so consuming you feel like they chew you up and spit you out. It's not just the normal day-to-day needs. It's all those extra things. The clinginess. The crying and whining. The medicine. The doctors. The snot, puke, poop and drool. (Sorry, gross, I know.)

Grace isn't terrible when she's sick. She lays around more than normal and whines somewhat. But she is generally a trouper. Abby, on the other hand, reverts to infancy. She whimpers, whines, makes terribly breathy sounds that worry you, runs a super high fever and acts very out of it and loopy. Every time the kid gets sick she scares the living daylights out of me. Part of it is that she has so many issues to begin with that when you add being sick onto it she goes into overload. She ataxia gets out of control. Her breathing is effected. She loses weight immediately. Under her eyes get purple. Her face is white as a ghost. She generally looks like their is something seriously wrong with her.

So, long story short I feel like I can't escape. Usually I have a couple hours at night, a couple at nap and a little down time during the day when they are playing or busy. But not for the past couple weeks. There is no reading, no sitting, no cooking without someone on my body. It is consuming and it is exhausting. I am so truly, completely, fully and wholly ready for it to be spring.