List Number 2

After waiting for what seems like 10 years we finally edged on on list number 2. Three weeks ago the 2nd list bearing my information was sent out to approximately 120 potential donors. We heard nothing for three weeks and of course, with each passing day my faith in this working dwindled. After getting screwed the first time, my confidence that we would get picked and everything would work out was much smaller than during round one. I had hoped to hear something after two weeks, but nothing, nothing, nothing.

After that third week passed I toiled over whether to call and bug some more or not. They had explicitly told me that I would get a call "as soon as they knew something." When I finally did call I found out that they did know something and yet hadn't called, surprise, surprise. As it turns out the couple from round 1 (who didn't have their pre-testing up to date) had chosen us once again. We are now waiting on the all clear before we can move forward. However, due to "scheduling problems" the office staff is a week behind on their calls to recipients to get the whole shebang moving.

As much as I love my RE's office, I can't help but feel like they sometimes forget that they are dealing with stressed out, hormonal, anxiety ridden women. I feel like my whole life has come down to this and the office staff acts like I am calling to schedule a pap smear. I realize that they deal with women like me day-in and day-out, but of all people you would think they would be sensitive to how we feel.

So, anyway, that brings us to current on the TTC story. I am sure that I have left out many details (especially the sleepless nights, tears and daily heartbreak) that I will try to fill-in in days to come. But for now, we are still waiting. We are waiting to get the thumbs up and be officially matched. We are waiting to find out if we will be moving on to IVF this cycle or next cycle or even at all.