Little Girl in a Big World

Have you ever had that experience where you are doing something mundane and day-to-day when you have that strange feeling wash over you that you are like a little kid in a grown up world. Every once in a while I will be walking through Target with my shopping cart of driving home from work and think to myself, "what the hell am I doing here... aren't I still like 5 years old... I a way too young to be driving this car all by myself." Ok, maybe I am the only one. Almost weekly I have that feeling that I am still a child and trying to fit in this adult world.

Take for instance, my doctors office. As we are going through the IVF process it seems to me like there should be someone there to hold my hand. Tell me when to show up for appointments and when to do blood work. Instead, the rely on me to get all of this VERY IMPORTANT information all squared away myself. Am I really grown up enough to be responsible for this. I may be staring down the barrel at 30, but I still feel about 10 years-old some days.

And how come you never have a class in high school called how to balance your checkbook properly. Or how to keep good credit. How about a class entitled "You life is going to suck most days pretty royally, so take the good ones for what they are." I feel cheated and misinformed. Not that my parents didn't prep me as much as possible, I just want to know when I officially became a grown up. (And, can I go back and be young for a while longer?)

Oh, and my random thought for the day -