Today was the much anticipated first ultrasound. We were hoping like heck to get to hear the heartbeat and get some good news. Unfortunately, we did not hear the heartbeat. I am measuring a little behind probably because of late implantation. There is only one yolk sac and the beginning of a fetal pole. Since the pole was not fully formed they couldn't confirm that there is a baby.
The bad part began when we went to talk to the doc (one I have never seen before) after the u/s. She had the worst bedside manner ever and it seemed like she was trying her damnedest to scare the shit out of us. She said she was a "little concerned" about not hearing a heartbeat. WTF? We knew it was probably too early. She then explained that the baby implanted high in my uterus, close to where one of the tubes connects. She said that the vast majority of people will have the placenta migrate down and be fine. She made sure to outline how if this doesn't happen that I would be in excrutiating pain and they would have to "take care of it" through surgery or medication. In other words and ABORTION.
So now I am worried and mad and upset. WTF can't anything ever just go normally for us. We have to friggin struggle for everything. So now we go back next week for another u/s. At this point even if we hear the heartbeat I will be worried about the location of implantation. This shit just never gets any easier for us. 
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OMG, I'm so sorry that you keep getting bad news. As to the heartbeat when I had my 1st u/s at 8w they said not to be worried if we don't hear it as sometimes it's even too early for that.
I don't think the doc should've told you anything about the implantation. They should've waiting till next week. Some docs, GRRR!!
I agree. I think sometimes they think they're doing you a favor by giving you the worst case scenario versus false hope, but there's some middle ground between those two extremes! At my first appt, I remember the nurse practitioner telling me she was worried because I didn't have any symptoms other than missing my period. I think her words were, "Well, we usually feel better when you've got symptoms because that means the pregnancy probably took well". Do they not think before they speak???
I'm hoping your next u/s will show everything progressing as it should, and be able to ease your mind a little. (((hugs)))
I'm sorry that the u/s wasn't more positive. As for the doctor doom and gloom again I'm sorry. I hope that she was telling you this so that if it didn't rectify itself then you'd be prepared and if you suddenly developed pain you'd call rather than wait like some. I know that doesn't make her words any easier, but I hope she's wrong on both counts. Will send up some prayers and positive thoughts and keep my fingers crossed as well.
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