No longer playing the "what if" game

For the past two years one of the most irritating part of our life is that we always had to play the "what if" game. When we planned a vacation, talked about holidays, thought of moving or changing the house, planned to buy a new car; we always tried to take into consideration IF I would be pregnant or IF we would have a baby. That is what has kept our hands tied from doing so many things. We also have had to be so cautious about what we spent our money on because we just MIGHT need another several thousand for another procedure or more medications.

In the past week or so we have found ourselves starting to make all those plans. The van we might now buy, when we should move, buying new furniture to clear the house out, the vacation by ourselves that we have been putting off. Yesterday we even started clearing out what will eventually be the nursery. We know it's early and we won't be putting any Baby stuff in there for months, but we have been waiting so long to MOVE. It all feels so freeing.

I never got to use this, but how adorable -->