For those readers who might not be Infertility aficionados (like myself) you may not be familiar with the expression 2ww. This expression stands for the 2 week wait that follows ovulation and precedes the dreaded pregnancy test. In our IF (infertility) circles it is a dreaded time for any woman. We must try to find ways to pass the time and NOT think about our test date. Over the past 2 and a half years I have very much dreaded each and every 2ww. What I found with IUI and IVF cycles is that the 2ww is ever more hellish. My first IVF I thought I was going to lose my mind. After my FET I almost did. Now that I am awaiting test day following IVF #2, I am overcome with a strange sense of calm.
Don't get me wrong, I am still petrified at the thought of test day. I vacillate between waiting for my beta like a good girl and taking a home test before that date. I still don't know what I will do. That being said, the usual mental countdown has not been playing out. Maybe it is fear, maybe it is preparedness from having done this before, maybe I inherently already know the outcome. Either way, I am strangely at ease about what's to come.
Now, tomorrow, may be another story. 
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I came across your blog the other day and just want to wish you all the best! The 2ww DOES stink. I'm on my last day today, just waiting for our results (and I go to the same clinic as you!). We're using a surrogate, so it's a bit of an easier 2ww because I'm not the one overthinking every twinge and symptom. I hope you get your BFP!
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