With only one more day til surgery the nerves are starting to settle in. I have the utmost confidence in CHOP and our surgeon. I know that in the end she will be so much better than where we started. No more glasses, no more stupid comments or questions from people. That part will be wonderful. For Abs to wake up in the morning and be able to see me before I put her glasses on is awesome.
That being said I hate what she has to go through. I hate the anesthesia. I hate the tube in her throat. I hate that they have to cut and stitch and pull muscles. I hate that when she wakes up I won't be there. I just hate that she is so little and has had to go through all this crap. I realize a lot of children go through way more but it still sucks. She is this tiny, sweet little peanut and when she does testing or appointments she looks at me like "Why Mommy, why?" It is just a shitty feeling.
Anyway, we call tomorrow afternoon to get her surgery time. So we are praying that no cold symptoms come up between now and Friday.
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I know how much I dreaded surgery; I can imagine that dread is compounded for you right now. Hopefully Abby will do as well as she's done for all of the testing. She's a trooper. She'll be fine. It's probably going to be harder on you than her. And worse case scenario, remind yourself that she won't remember what happened for very long! ;)
And I promise, I read all the time. I'm just not very good at commenting.
From BA - you're doing the best thing for your daughter. As much as it sucks, it's better for her in the long run. She won't even remember this. You don't want her to have to deal with classmates that make fun of her eyes. You both will get through it and be better for it. Sending my prayers . . .
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