Figured out

I think that many of us spend much of our time assuming that we have things somewhat figured out. Last week I was planning for Christmas, getting ready to take my kids of the trip of a lifetime and being happy being pregnant. In one instant everything changed. Everything I thought I knew was turned upside. Life didn't make much sense. What seemed important faded to the background.

Now instead of spending the week counting down the days until Christmas and Disney we will be counting the days until my Dad comes home. Instead of shopping and packing we're preparing for a life with chemo and sickness. Instead of getting my house ready for the holiday I am getting the house ready for five kids instead of two so when the big kids need to be here they can.

While Christmas will still come Disney won't this year. We chose to postpone it a year. Taking the trip without my Dad was not an option. While it was an easy decision it completely sucks to have to have a house full of kids not only sad about my Dad but also disappointed about not going on our trip.

I guess we didn't have things figured out. I guess nobody does.